This week’s challenge was something I have always wanted to do but never had the willpower to really stick to it for an extended period of time: the social media cleanse. Like many people these days, I am definitely someone who is staring at my phone screen longer than I should be each day. I’m sure it could classify as an addiction. Even if I just checked a certain social media platform a minute ago, I will unlock my phone and check it again just to be sure nothing has changed. This behavior is something that I want to break the habit of and I thought it would be perfect to write about in my blog considering it is such a difficult commitment for me and so many other people our age to make.
Day 1: Today I deleted the social media apps that I use off my phone to start of the week. I deleted my Instagram, Snapchat, and Facebook apps, and I already had deleted my Twitter account a few months ago. It was weird to go on my phone and not have these little squares to click on and immediately see what my friends are up to. I realized my phone really wasn’t really intriguing at all without social media and found that I started to hit the home button to check for notifications less.
Day 2: This morning I woke up and got genuinely stressed out when I realized I couldn’t check Instagram or see if I had any snapchats or Facebook notifications. It’s come to the point where social media is like the daily newspaper nowadays. It’s like without it we’re clueless about what is going on in the world around us. I fought the urge to redownload my apps and went through my day, still occasionally unlocking my phone to find that the only apps I wanted to use were not there anymore.
Day 3: I’ve established I might be worse off without the apps then with them. It’s been three days and I’ve definitely reached the brink of insanity, but I think it’s just the curiosity that’s killing me of wondering who has reached out to me and what I can’t see that all my friends can. Although it’s super annoying not being able to use social media, I definitely see a difference in the amount of time I’m spending on my phone. Instead of having my head consumed in my LED screen on the bus, during dinner, etc. I’m having conversations with people I normally wouldn’t.
Day 4: Today I was pleasantly surprised from an unexpected change of heart. I realized that my notifications were not as important as I once thought. I am significantly less stressed and enjoying my time away from social media. I’ve had the opportunity to reconnect with the physical world and engage with people who I normally would ignore in favor of my phone. I am meeting new people and I just feel a sense of relief that I don’t have an obligation to reply to people that I may not want to or in a timely manner.
Day 5: During this challenge I learned that although it’s convenient to be able to pick up my phone and immediately be able to connect with others and not worry about what’s really going on around me, presence of mind is such a valuable attribute and there are definitely repercussions of being able to access social media all day every day.
Lately I’ve been having a bit of unnecessary stress and drama clouding up my thoughts and emotions. I’ve hypothesized that this stress and drama that seems to be following me around is mainly coming from a single source: boys. Now this post isn’t to say that all boys are bad and I’ve never met a decent man and blah blah blah. Not at all actually. I know plenty of amazing guys and I’m sure they’d make wonderful significant others. However, either those guys do not wish to be MY significant other, or I don’t wish to be theirs for one reason or another. So this week I decided to go on a bit of a male cleanse. I sound crazy, I know, but I figured it’d be great to focus on myself for a few days.
Not only did I stop talking any prospective love interests, but also guy friends of mine. I don’t know about anyone else, but sometimes I really think that guys can be a million times more dramatic than girls ever will be. The stereotype that girls are so emotional and drama-filled is pretty insulting considering a lot of guys I know are the ones that love to stir the pot. One of my guy friends in particular ALWAYS has some shit to vent or complain about to me. Every. Time. We. Talk. And to be quite honest it gives me second-hand stress just hearing about it. So, what did I do this week? Blocked his number. That in itself was a weight off my shoulders because for a whole 5 days I didn’t get dragged into his life full of girl problems and fights. I may sound like a shitty friend but trust me. It literally improved my mental clarity.
Now we get to the “love interests”, as mentioned before. For the first day and a half, the guy that I have been into for the past couple months, let’s call him Andy, sent me snapchats and texts, even tagged me in memes on Instagram. Yes, I opened them because the suspense was killing me (I’m ridiculous) but by the second day he basically stopped. I was fighting the urge to reply, and realized most of the time it was because I was bored or lonely or a combination of the two. By day 3 I was itching to answer, just to at least let Andy know I wasn’t angry or upset with him, but I stood my ground. Now just put yourself in this position for a second. Imagine the guy or girl you really like has been texting you for a couple days, and you’re just watching the messages come in but not replying. Kinda felt powerful to be honest, but also felt anxious and frustrated.
So basically this week I realized it’s not natural to stop talking to people that you want to talk to, but it definitely is nice to give it a break and not be attached to your phone 24/7 because you’re dealing with other people’s drama and sometimes even making it your own. I took it to an extreme and I probably should have just limited myself to a certain limit of interaction a day instead of ghosting completely because instead of focusing solely on myself, my unanswered messages were in the back of my head. Cold turkey was not the way to go, but it was an interesting experiment to say the least.
This week was my dreaded week of all dreaded weeks in the history of dreaded weeks. Haha, nah I’m being dramatic. But really. For my week 2 challenge I decided to work out every day. Now, this is something that I wish I could do every day of my life, but just cannot ever muster up the motivation to do. I know I’m not the only one, because me and my friends all look at each other with the same sheer terror in our eyes whenever the gym is suggested. I will come up with 3095325 unnecessary tasks that I need to do to avoid getting my ass up and doing something that is amazing for my health and self-esteem. It is truly mind boggling. So for the past 5 days I attempted at exercising each day, no excuses allowed.
Day 1: I started off the week by going to the gym with my best friend who loves to work out. This friend in particular is always asking me to go to the gym with her and usually I say yes and then when it’s time to actually go I find an excuse not to. We start with cardio and 6 minutes in I’m already begging the time to move quicker. Literally staring at the time on the elliptical wishing it would fast forward. Pathetic I know, but if you tell me you don’t do this you’ve gotta be lying. After the half hour that seemed like twelve eternities, she took me to do abs and butt. This shit hurts. How people thoroughly enjoy this… I will never understand. Not a big gym girl.
Day 2: Last summer, I signed up for hot yoga and I actually really loved it so I thought it would be a good thing to do to make this week go by quicker. I found a free pass for a class nearby and brought a couple friends with me. I realized how much I miss yoga today and wish I did it more often, but in my defense packages are ridiculously expensive. Of course the one physical activity I enjoy doing is astronomically priced.
Day 3: Today was a nice day out so I decided to go for a run around campus. At home, I don’t mind doing this once in a while but at school I find it uncomfortable. I passed like 3 people I know and awkwardly waved and gave a defeated smile while sweat was profusely dripping off my face and my pony tail was gradually getting messier and messier. Not a cute look. This workout wasn’t that bad. Maybe if the weather was nice like this all the time I’d go for runs more. Probably not, but maybe.
Day 4: Today I dragged my friends to a Zumba class with me that we signed up for through Rutgers. This was the first time I did Zumba and I wish I tried it sooner. It was so much fun especially because my friends and I looked equally as ridiculous attempting to perfect each move. This class was basically just dancing like a maniac for a half hour straight, and the time went by really fast because we were actually laughing and enjoying ourselves, even while dripping sweat and looking like hot messes. I definitely want to try more classes offered at Rutgers because this class showed just how fun getting some exercise in could be (never thought I’d say such a thing).
Day 5: To end the week, I went for another jog, again, seeing a few familiar faces while looking like a wet rat. Joy! This week honestly wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be and I totally feel much more energetic and motivated to work out next week. Yes, there were days when I made excuses and didn’t want to budge from bed but after my workouts I felt it was worth it, even if some of the time I wanted to rip my hair out and call it quits.
So this week I decided to (try to) commit to eating a breakfast other than bagels every morning. In my house, bagels are always available and it’s the easiest thing to grab when I am running late in the morning, and in my opinion the most satisfying. No cooking, no wait time, nothing strenuous about it. Plus I love being able to choose any spread I am in the mood for on any given day, whether it’s strawberry, onion and chive, you name it. As you can see I can write this whole blog about my love for bagels. However, I’m not going to do that. Instead I’m going to tell you what I ate this week to replace my usual bagel breakfast and to curve my instinct to grab for one, even on my busiest days.
Day 1: This morning I had work at 10, and rushed out of the house without grabbing my carb filled breakfast. As upsetting as it was, I knew I couldn’t fail my challenge on the first day (lol). When I got to work I really wasn’t hungry at all. I came to the realization that I don’t eat the bagel because I’m hungry, I eat it because it has literally become a habit. I opened up the shop and waited for my boss to arrive, and when he did he got right to making us smoothies. To my surprise the smoothie filled me up just as much as a bagel does without the gross bloated feeling afterwards.
Day 2: Today I had a free morning and no class until 2, so I was in no rush to hastily eat an unhealthy breakfast. I decided to take the 5 minute walk to Playa Bowls and try something new there. I love Playa Bowls but I never do this because 1. it requires me getting my lazy ass out of the house and seeing people I may not want to see and 2. it costs money that I do not have. Honestly if money wasn’t an object I’d get Playa every day though, because it’s just that good.
Day 3: Since I live in a sorority house with a chef, you’d think I’d take advantage of the breakfast made every morning… well I never did… until this morning. I had scrambled eggs and made myself some cereal. I even treated myself to a side of bacon. I think this is the type of breakfast that I need to start having more often. It made me feel like a real civilized human being that actually sits down and enjoys their food instead of scarfing down a slab of bread. 10/10 recommend.
Day 4: So today I had work in the morning again, and my boss made me another one of his famous smoothies for breakfast, which I was fully satisfied with. With that being said… I may or may not have gone out at night only to drunkenly come home and eat a bagel and a half. OF COURSE I ruin my goal and it wasn’t even for freakin’ breakfast. Yes, I’m disappointed in myself to say the least, but I’m definitely going to remember this week and how much more satisfied and adult-like I felt sitting down and eating nutritious foods for my first meal of the day instead of stuffing a bagel down my gullet and running out the door.
Hey guys. My name is Carla and I’m a student here at Rutgers double majoring in Psychology and Human Resource Management. I’m writing this blog because I don’t know about you, or if this is even normal or relatable at all, but I have the hardest time ever committing to the simplest things. Tell myself I’ll go to the gym every day? After 2 days I break that promise. Tell myself I’ll stop eating bagels every morning? Hahahaha. Yeah right. I could go on and on about things I promise myself I’ll do and then break a day or two in. So this blog’s purpose is to challenge myself and my inability to commit.
In the beginning of each week I will decide on what my commitment will be for the week, and at the end of each week I’ll give you guys updates on how long it lasts and how painful it is for me to keep up with it. Hopefully though, I’ll stick to my word no matter how difficult it is, and be able to prove that I can, in fact, commit. I want this blog to encourage other people that feel they may also have “commitment issues”, that if I can commit, they can too. If I have one talent, it’s to make fun of myself and the fact that I can’t keep seemingly easy promises to myself, and I’ve always believed that if you can’t make light of your flaws that you will go utterly insane instead. I’m determined to start keeping these promises for my own benefit, but also for your entertainment, because Lord knows its going to be a shit show.
Even trying to commit to a topic for this blog was like pulling teeth. After so many ideas ran in and out of my head, and so many opinions and suggestions were given to my desperate self from friends, I realized, what would be better than a blog about how hard it is for me to commit to a single damn thing. I’m excited to test my limits and really push myself to keep going with things that I normally would say “F this” and quit the minute things got tough. Some weeks will be easier than others I’m sure, and it’ll be a learning experience for me to see how determined and motivated I stay for each specific challenge I give myself. Wish me luck, I’m going to need it. If you have any suggestions on things that I should try to commit to, don’t be afraid to reach out!