Final Reflection

It’s so insane to think that the semester is coming to an end.  Even though my challenges made some weeks more difficult than others, and sometimes feel like they were never-ending, they really flew by and opened my eyes to a lot of changes that I needed to make in my everyday life.  I’m the type of person that can easily make fun of myself or point out my own flaws without a problem, as you probably picked up on while reading my blog.  I tend to make jokes about myself to make people laugh, but when people point out my flaws I get offended and defensive.  So throughout this semester I really brainstormed about the things that either I make fun of myself for, or things that other people poke fun at me for, and each week I tried to better myself and prove that I can do anything if I really focus and put my mind to it.

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If I’m being completely honest, after some weeks I was so relieved that my challenge for the week was over that I would go straight back to my old ways once I was done with the challenge.  For example, for the first week when I did probably the simplest challenge, not eating bagels, when the week was over I went right back to eating them.  I still remember how great it felt to eat a healthier breakfast without the bloating and regret at the end of my meal, but if this blog made me realize anything it’s that some habits take much more than a week to overcome and get rid of.

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As the weeks of the semester went on, though, my blog started to become fun and I really did challenge myself harder and harder each time to keep up with what I was trying to accomplish.  It started to be more like a game and I got my friends involved to help push me through and keep me motivated and on track.  They got really serious about it too and would actually get disappointed with me if I would mess up my challenge before the end of the week.  Throughout the semester while writing this blog I learned how important it is to have a support system around you that wants the best for you and how much it helps when you are trying to reach goals that you have set for yourself.  For example, I could have never gotten through my challenge where I went to the gym every day for the week if it wasn’t for my friends pushing me and working out with me to make it less excruciating.  In the beginning of that week I was super determined to get through the challenge because working out more is something I really do want to incorporate into my daily life.  Towards the middle of the week though, I started to make up dumb excuses, and they were the ones to push me to reach my goal and reminded me how upset with myself I would be if I didn’t get through the week.

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My commitment issues blog has taught me so much about myself and the things that do and don’t work for me when it comes to motivation and perseverance.  I’m always going to keep this blog in mind and how proud me and my friends were when I would finish one of my challenges, especially the ones that were super hard for me but I got through anyway.  When I did get through a challenge I felt so great and couldn’t wait for the next week to challenge myself again.  I hope you all were as excited as I was for my challenges every week, and that maybe I gave you some motivation to challenge yourself a bit and leave your comfort zone, even if it’s just for a week.

 

 

Challenge 5: Caffeine Withdrawals

This week I decided to relax with my coffee addiction and attempt to go to sleep earlier to see if it affected how I feel in the morning.  I’m guilty of being a night owl and feel that I’m most productive at night.  I do my homework, clean my room, do laundry… basically everything I should’ve done during the day.  There are nights that I’m awake at 3:30 AM still folding my laundry and running on 3 or 4 cups of coffee, and I realize it’s probably not the most healthy lifestyle to live.  I’m exhausted in the mornings, and like I said in my past blog, I usually sleep in super late to make up for the sleep lost the night before.  Then the first thing I do when I step out of my bed is stumble downstairs and put my caramel café k cup in the Keurig and place it on the largest setting.  I rely on multiple cups of that shit to keep me functioning during the day when I could simply just get to bed at a reasonable time and get more sleep.tired good morning GIF by SLOTHILDA

Day 1:  I got ready for bed last night at around 8.  It was weird for me.  Really weird.  At that time on a Sunday I’m usually starting to finish up my work for the week and put in a load of laundry, but with this challenge in mind I did it a few hours earlier in the day.  I got into bed at 9 and mid Handmaids Tale episode I passed tf out.  This morning I had work at 10, and usually I set my alarm for 9 but snooze it 14 times, but today I was determined to get out of bed and start my day without coffee.  About an hour in, it wasn’t going well.  I was still extremely sluggish and literally dying for my daily morning cup of coffee.  Now I understand why I love that stuff so much.  I seriously felt like a zombie and was barely a quarter through my day.coffee GIF

Day 2:  Yesterday was a long day.  Like torturously long.  So getting in bed early was actually heaven and I had no problem knocking out once my head hit the pillow.  This morning though… lemme tell ya.  If there’s such thing as caffeine withdrawals, I was getting them full-fledged.  It’s not even that I was overly tired, I was just the most irritable human being on the east coast, and my pounding headache wasn’t helping, and all I kept thinking about was how coffee would make me feel a billion times better.  The day went on and I was in class at 2:00 literally starting to doze off.  It isn’t even like I went to bed late so I couldn’t blame my sleepiness on that anymore.  Coffee has just become such a vital part of my daily life (as dramatic as I may sound to someone that doesn’t have this problem) that it’s what keeps me functioning throughout the day.  I never realized what a huge effect it had on me until now.  After class I forfeit.  I walked over to Dunkin’ and got a large caramel iced coffee with almond milk, and girl, nothing has ever tasted so damn good.  I now know that coffee may just be something I need for my mental sanity and well-being.  I’m going to try to limit myself to less cups a day because the way I feel without it is unhealthy, but for now, I’ll continue to turn that Keurig on to start my days.

 

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